My failure is motivation

All i knew was my mother and the streets ive lost a brother and sister do to lack of hope to much pressure in with no direction to turn for motivation so drugs was the way out for them.for myself ive robbed stole hurt many people in the process without the intentions jus because i was to impatient to think about other people losses in the process i didnt have no education gave up on school in 6th grade started running the roads didnt care about life or who i hurt in the process ive been to jail many of times and been to prison 5 times was locked up from 16 to 28 with only short breaks out before i made my last mistake that costed me and my family 3 1/2 years i had a boy michael named after my brother who passed away when i got lock up for helping my brother that was getting beat by 2 guys i did 3 1/2 years for my son was only 4 months old hes in my momma bev arms to the far left in my chapter picture the little guy in my arms to the far right is eric he was in mommys belly for 2 months when i made my last big mistake i put that 3 1/2 years to use i tought myself how to treat people how i want to be treated and practiced how to walk without slippin into bad situations i educated myself got my G.E.D FIRST TRY no schooling to help me i did it that gave me more motivation i done programs learned how to control myself learned patients i used my 3 1/2 years like it was a blessing because i know my crime wasnt rite even tho i had good intentions just handled it inthe wrong way i deserved that sentence not many people will see it that way.so here i am now out on the streets back with my boys and now have a baby girl i love my kids more then anything in this world ive been out 2 1/2 years no trouble been a rough challenge for me going from knowing momma,robbing stealing drugs and prison to raising a family and doing parole witch i got off in 14 months that was a weird feeling being all the way out of trouble after 10 years the system was my normal life it was a good feeling so now ive put us in a bad situation from trying to help everybody and tryin to get a business up so i can give people jobs that will pay the bills and leave em room to get nice thangs and give em a chance to help others my problem is lack of tools and money now me and my babies is homeless and im trying everything i can to find good people that will help me get started with direction and equipment i dont want nobody to give up on life ive been thru alot was raised being told i was crazy even got ssi check every first for it but when i got old enough to catch on i was gettin a check for being crazy i cut it off on my own i aint had nothing in my life till these past 2 1/2 years now i got a family 3 kids and a pretty babies momma ive had 5 beat up cars i got a van and yard tools tools and a couple lawn mowers if i had the proper set up i could change a bunch of lifes within time so if your a resource and can relate and want to see and follow be the reason a great thing happend help me get started and i will show the weak how to be strong and never give up on life my goal is to work work work to help give back love give people who need more then 10 chances in life a better chance to be successful with no pressure noboby is perfect mistakes is just a lesson to learn from and a promise is meant to be broken so i dont make them but i wont stop till i get there